A beautiful storm



Being vulnerable… allowing myself to feel… anything dealing with emotions is not my strong suit.
The past week had left me feeling defeated. I wondered if I was good enough. If I could get myself out of my current circumstances. I wondered if God had forgotten about me.

I’ve applied for jobs and so far I’ve received a “Thank you, but we are looking at other candidates…” which translates to no job for Kiwi.

Okay! Now that we got that out of the way. Let’s get to the good stuff, but keep in mind that I don’t have a job.

  1. No gas for my car. My niece needs a ride to Sandy Utah and she provides gas money.
    – Lorriane needs a place to leave her car and a ride back to Provo. She leaves me with gas money and a little extra for food.
  2. I had the opportunity to work on a film project. It’s a new video for “His Grace” series.

My life is kind of like a highway and everyone I meet is a “mile marker” and every struggle is an “exit”. The past week allowed me to meet some amazing people who helped me realize that my future and my potential is not tied to my current circumstances.
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Dear Younger Me..

“Even though I love this crazy life. Sometimes I wish it was a smoother ride ..”
I grew up in foster care. I bounced around from group home to group home. I lived in my first group home when I was 11, left my final group home at 16. My first forever family came into my life at 13. I loved them with everything my heart could share. Due to world changing events (September 11, 2001), the family changed their mind.  It was a rough transition from having a family to living in a detention center (because that was the only bed they had for me), and bouncing in and out of groups homes.

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